That boiiiii

The lights were off and all i could hear were his feet dancing to the music,
Our music.

So today I was getting really excited about Law School. I was looking at programs in NYU and Columbia and I was about to DIE!!! ahhhh!!!! I wonder what my life would be in the east coast for three years of my life? Afterward, i went on GUCCI.COM to look at the suits that i would be wearing once i got a job, OMG they were so cute and fierce! I already have an idea of what bag i will be having, the fitting, the colors, and the fabulous glasses that will go with every outfit. I decided that when i would wear a semi-generic suit i would make it fabulous by adding some bomb-ass diamond accessories.

:)

now, i am off to planning my wedding!!!!

(oh wow..... i am pathetic...... ugh!!! i can't even LEGALLY get married)

drunk

i don't want to stop.

I realize that when the earth is more than me it's bc i have failed to be the best that i can i be,

I wouldn't fuck somebody that you have fucked!

Amy

I wasn't ready to go home. 

Home, HOME

The rain was pouring and the cars had nowhere to move. 

The heads of the drivers were missing,

My hands were steering,

Everything was pitch black and the blur was piercing through my skin..... 

I need this to stop,

The ripping is not yours but my own,

The shattered glass was hurting the last piece that was my own, 

My scream was the last thing that came out of my throat,

The same throat that loved your body at nights,

The same fucking tear that keeps rolling down my cheek every fucking second of the day!

Wallet

My head is not attached. It can't be, can it? 

Get it straight,

The crooked line is getting in the way...

Caballo Dorado

I really couldn't understand the speed of which my life was going last night. I was racing but I was racing to get lost. I didn't do it on purpose, I was attempting to continue the stability of which my life had taken up for the past 5 days. There was no way out of this circle- Irvine. Every building was the same shade of beige. That beige that creeps up from behind at nights and blocks you. Never allows you to see any other colors that might help ease your breathing. I looked and played with my phone, still searching for something that was impossible to search for; but don't I get some credit for my determination? My persistence in not admitting defeat? 

I'm not in Irvine, Downey, Santa Barbara or here. Still stuttering, still looking through my bag, still pressing buttons on my phone, still blocked by these four beige walls, walls that turned into pavement, the same pavement i'm racing to get lost...

READING

So i started the quarter right!

yey!!!

I did all my reading in one day!!! FUCK YEAH!!! I am heading in the right direction because COLUMBIA here i come!!!!
:-D

I am sad that I am not going to have a life this January month but I am happy that I will be getting the chance to travel A LOT! haaaay! especially with my new bag! hahahahaah

stuffed (written with optimism)

Why don't u hoist me?
Anywhere,
Anytime.

Its about time that I start to become numb,
Numb,
Numb.

To everything that is you,
That portriat u painted oh-so long ago,
With me sitting in an ovesized black leather couch with a knife on the wooden caramel floor,
And red paint dripping down my cheeks-my eyes.

It never crossed ur mind that it could be more,
That I would remember it with guilt,
Anger,
Pain?

Yesterday is not Yesterday,
Today is not today,
Tomorrow is not tomorrow,
Its still that day u asked me to count to ten,
Hold my breath,
Shut my mouth,
And love the knife that u thrusted inside of me.