Pepe

cuando me miro en el espejo trato de pensar en lo que nunca voy a poder amar

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Zodiac

"In dealing with Gemini’s erratic behavior in changing so swiftly from one thing to another will try deeply on Leo’s patience. They will not stand back idly and watch as Gemini disregards past mistakes, moves on after just a minor flaw is noticed with their profession, friends, family or loved ones. Leo won’t stand for Gemini’s lack of decency when it comes to running off to find the next best thing when they haven’t even cleaned up the mess from what they are currently involved in. With the love Leo feels for their Gemini, they will make it a point to grab hold of Gemini, shake them up and lecture them into realizing that what they are doing is foolish and asinine. And, although deep down Gemini knows the Leo is right they will not try to hide the fact that they are annoyed and infuriated at Leo’s words."

what you give is what you get. Dreams and just dreams.....

What to Feel?

These past two days have been filled with positive energy and beautiful friends... I hope it stays this way...

I am a hopeless romantic. I don't wanna fuck. I will not fuck. I want to make love. And will ONLY make love. dayum, i have a feeling i'm not gonna be laying naked with someone for a long time since my heart is at a still.

25 more days until i am finally fucking TWENTY ONE! 2-1 !

........ i'm so excited

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Laying,
Confused and heartbroken,
Touching me,
Feeling me and looking at me,
But no different from the rest,
I am no different from him.

Waking up,
Everywhere and nowhere,
Can I escape,
Lips pouting,
Throat drying,
I need a different kiss,
A kiss of my own,
A kiss not like his.

Numb,
Laying and waking,
But always feeling,
The hurt,
And the love that is just like his,
Why,
How,
And when will it be only mine,
And if not mine,
When will it be just ours....

Fouth of July

I have been starving for the past week. I am over fast food and eating out, but i lack the capacity to cook for myself.

It's like i continue to eat but for what?

I have been going to the gym four times a week for the past two weeks and it has been wonderful actually. I have enjoyed going, i'm seeing results, and i'm spending precious time with friends.

Summer has been one big HOTMESS! God, my life is a hotmess. I can't help it though, my momma is a hotmess by nature thus i am a hotmess by nature. Emotionally, i think that i could be better. I haven't been writing on my journal as much but I think that will change in the next. I definitely have some things to write about, especially after this weekend.

I need to focus on my studies. i need to focus on my studies so I can get into grad school.

Shit needs to happen! and i need to be a HOTMESS but a hotmess with class