Daydream

You should know that you are just a temporary fix and you will only be remembered for your touch and not your words.

I can be all that you need and more.

I've always been more than you can handle,
You have never met me half way,
stop pretending like you deserve more than what I have sacrificed for you in the last fucking month.

I am broke,
But you're broke,
And because you're broke I am rich.

My life at the current moment is lacking momentum. I'm trying to tell you just how i like the words to come out of your mouth, so stop covering your ears and bare with me. Bare with me. Bare. Bare the fuck out. Place your dick against mine. The phallic that runs through every piece of my soul. My life at the current moment has evolved beyond control and I'm drinking every step of the way.

I tucked it underneath my pillow when we were both pretending to sleep....

I wish there was a way that I could take my black maker and blackout his name.
How could I be so stupid?
How could I not?
How can I be so unsure of what love is that I still think that what I did was stupid??

I have many secrets,
Secrets because i am ashamed,
So ashamed of myself that the secrets keep adding.
I wish there was a way that i could prevent them from occurring but they keep feeding me these death seeds...

I am fierce at the cost of love.
I am insecure at the cost of love.
I am who I am at the cost of love!

Everything is at the cost of something. I can't and won't be vulnerable until I know it's fine to do so.

I fight the world each day because that was the only thing I was taught growing up and it's all I've seen and continue to see....

Today is not a good day for smiling..

I went today when i knew that i shouldn't because my heart was bleeding.
Everything that I knew and know is so irrelevant when I just allow the flow of actions lead me.
I'm getting sick,
So sick that i can no longer picture a morning of whistles outside my room.
My knees are sore from tonight.
Sore from looking into his eyes and never finding the answers I wanted.....