Today is not a good day for smiling..

I went today when i knew that i shouldn't because my heart was bleeding.
Everything that I knew and know is so irrelevant when I just allow the flow of actions lead me.
I'm getting sick,
So sick that i can no longer picture a morning of whistles outside my room.
My knees are sore from tonight.
Sore from looking into his eyes and never finding the answers I wanted.....